I do not know what is really wrong, but something is wrong between us. 

I need to know what that is in order to try to fix it. I really can not accept that the whole relationship is wrong. Maybe it is just me?. Yea, it is probably that.

Sometimes I think that, because I hate it when she says that she misses me or that she likes me.

I do not want to hear it, I do not need to know it. I trust she does.

I also dislike it when she texts or calls all the time, I personally hate cellphones.

I do not really like that kind of interaction with anyone... I am just like that. haha 

However; I like occasional E-mails, letters, catching up with the latest and still enjoying it :D!

Just like distancing never happened.

She does not want any of that, she has to text or call me. 

and you would not believe it, but I made up calling policies jkadjasldhasd xd! 

It's ridiculous, but it's the only way I do not feel controled. :D!

And I've told her, this is not the ''normal'' relationship most people have, but we can make it work. :D!

For now, I think we keep it the way we have so far, some improvements, but I think we are doing alright.

I can not stop thinking about this something that I know is really wrong.... anyway.

I do not know what I am doing, and certainly do not really know where am I going.

I just hope this is right, for sometimes the things are meant to be are not found, but rather created.

She does not want gifts nor fancy words from me. However, the only thing she asks for, I do not quite know how to give it to her, no matter how bad I want to.
Is it fear? is it insecurity? or is it merely my jerky self.