Señores, quiero que sepan que ya no la quiero, que ya la olvidé, pero por favor no me miren a los ojos porque se darán cuenta de que les estoy mintiendo. 

     Well, there is an old saying in Spanish that tells that one should not look for the things one has not lost, or one can end up finding them; I should have known better.
     Oh! how dumb. Not a single day I forgot to open the lid hoping to find something that would make everything all right, but it happened, again. I pushed my luck too far, and once more have to face the stinging truth.
   

It's been days that I haven't gotten anything written down.